The last couple of months have been tough. My anxiety & stress levels have been at an all-time high. I’ve felt helpless and lost. Fortunately, I’m slowly getting better but it’s an uphill battle.
It happens. It happens to everyone but it’s not something we easily talk about. We are silent about our rough times so we feel isolated and alone when we experience these moments.
What’s been causing me pain? It’s hard to know precisely but I have a few ideas:
-Not Enough Change.
-Trying to Balance Everything.
I’ve been struggling with health problems for a while and I’ve been going to specialist after specialist for stomach issues, anemia, inflammation. Interestingly enough I learned gut issues can create a vicious cycle: stress can negatively affect your gut, and an unhealthy gut affects happiness. Unhappiness can induce stress…and then the cycle begins again. In fact, 90% of your body’s serotonin is produced in your digestive tract so if something’s off there, chances are your mood is off too. I’ll likely dedicate a couple of posts to this topic as I learn more.
I’ve wanted to write a post about what I’ve been going through but I’ve been hesitant to confront it publicly. I know my friends, family, coworkers, and people I don’t know read this blog so I worry that what I say will be taken the wrong way. I’m overall content, my life is good, and I have AMAZING people in my life (I can’t stress this point enough). But there are instances of uncontrollable tears, panic attacks, uncertainty and doubt.
On the bright side, there are instances where I feel warm, happy, and at peace and I’m hoping to keep more of those moments in my life.
A few things keeping me sane are:
-A few special people in my life
I’ve heard from a lot of people that they’ve experienced something similar in their mid-20s so maybe this is how quarter life crisis manifests itself in my life.
Thanks for letting me share what I’m going through. This blog isn’t supposed to be a journal but sometimes I just have to say what’s on my mind.