I had a hard time deciding what I wanted my next post to be about after writing my more personal “health story.” I thought about sharing a recipe or something but it didn’t feel like it flowed…so I’m sharing a little more about me again:
A few years back, I picked up some bad habits, gained some weight and then ultimately, realized I needed to live a healthier lifestyle. During my first attempt at being more fit, I started working out more and tried different fitness classes to find something I liked, but after trying multiple different classes, I would always find excuses to skip out. Barre & pilates weren’t right for me because I wasn’t flexible. Spin classes were a hassle with clipless shoes and uncomfortable seats. Even running with a group of people was intimidating because I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to keep up.
Convinced that group fitness classes were not right for me, I isolated myself to going to the gym alone. I would spend thirty minutes on a cardio machine, play around with a few weights, stretch, and then call it day. A few friends would ask me to go to a class with them but I was adamant in doing my workouts on my own time. Eventually, I fell into a monotonous routine which had left me uninspired, unmotivated, and discouraged.
But the truth is I dreaded group fitness classes because I lacked self-confidence. There I was, a short Indian girl trying to lose a few extra pounds, surrounded by other girls who were toned, tall & confident. I felt out of place and judged, though in reality the only person judging me was myself.
I wish I had a light-bulb flash at me when I realized my approach was completely wrong. I wish I had realized earlier that I was focusing too much energy on others.
It took me time to find self-love & confidence and it took some encouragement from friends for me to face my nagging fear. Over the course of three to four years I have finally come to a place of acceptance and love for myself. These days you can find me at spin, pilates, and even hip-hop ( though I’m pretty sure I’m one of the least-coordinated people!). I look forward to my classes now because they keep my workouts interesting and fun.
If you’re just beginning your health journey, realize that no one is an expert from the start. We have all felt uncomfortable at some point. Reject negative thoughts and doubt. Embrace what you have instead of longing for what you don’t. Your body can do amazing things <3.